Feeling numb,
yet at the same time part of my heart still feeling sore.
still tearing myself to sleep.

Except that now, what trouble me wasn't just the issue about us.
Its freaking true that when one bad things happens,
Everything just come crashing down on you altogether.
Ohmygod! really at the peak of breaking down.
feeling damn scare,
scare that I will go back to that girl, 2.5 years back.
Can't. I really took damn long to recover.

So please shirlyn.
Stay strong.
Be that cheerful & bubbly girl everyone see you as.
Don't Cry anymore.
I know it really hurts.
But no. its really time to stop crying.

but, its really too hurtful.
yet i'm constantly trying to act like nothing happen at all

Sis was talking to me today,
telling me that she was quite concern abt me,
Past few nights she had been overhearing me, Crying.
I'm sorry sis. but right now, i cant talk to anyone abt anything.
Not just you, some of my close friends had also keep texting me & checking on me.
But i cant say anything. It's just too painful to even think about it.

I don't really talk to my Manager, not even text(at lest not private issue).
But i text him today, asking when i can officially start work
Prolly this period i should try to distract myself by making myself real busy
Contemplating whether to get a 2nd job anot.
But its really hard to find temp job recently =/

If there is really such thing as guardian angel,
where are you? coz i really need you now.
I'm dying.. soon..




Day 07; since i lost you.

Designer :Rissa


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